Secret Smile

University started back on the 26th of September and I am now in stage 2 and just about getting used to my new timetable. We just got internet in my new house yesterday and I can now begin blogging again the real reason am blogging so late is that I have a cold and can’t sleep.

Let me tell you a bit about stage 2. Stage 2 requires a lot of group work and last year I didn’t really have a good experience with group work.
I was working with someone last year on a website and when the assignment was given, we also found out we had to assess each others effort on the project. A percentage goes towards our module mark. We had both agreed we’d be generous in that area. Getting to the point I basically did most of the work whilst also babysitting my partner to do some work.

Deadline came and due to lack of contribution we stopped talking to each other and gave in what we could. Whilst marking the peer assessment form I kept to my word and gave my partner good marks despite knowing that constructive criticism was best I kept thinking she is a friend she need good marks. The results came out during exams and by then we where slowly talking again (despite what people do nobody is perfect and I make mistake too, so am not going to write her off as a friend) she got a better mark than me (the person who did most of the work).

I was so confused how I should be feeling should I say something to her (because she had obviously marked me low because we had fallen out as friends) or leave it am sure she knows what she’s done. I ended up trying to forget it and focused on my exams which I passed with a distinction.

Now am in stage two and we are not in the same group. I think we both knew it wouldn’t work but it still leaves me a bit on guard with my new group who are also 4 of my friends. I don’t think it’s a good idea working with friends but then there’s working with absolute strangers who I might not be able to communicate with. At least with friends I know what to expect (I think) but maybe am just worrying and this might actually work out alright.

I definitely learnt a lesson and that is sticking to constructive criticism because that would have helped the friend even if she had marked me low out of spite.
I would love to say all is forgiven and forgotten but even though you want to forget you just can’t but I certainly do forgive after all we are still talking.