is this my crossroad?

May 9, 2007

ok am coming to the end of my degree at university and its time to ask myself “whats next?”. everytime i ask myself this i get depressed and i try really hard to not think about it. time is running out to make a descion if i do not decide now i could end up scrapping the bottom of the barrel for a job.
i know the decision i make now is not the end all and be all it is more of a catalyst in the chain of events in my life but then why is it so hard for me to just pick something and go for it. one reason might be the fact that i spent 3 years at university only to find am not really into my chosen subject. I just want to pick something thats right for me and that i wont regret.

Group Work

October 1, 2005

University started back on the 26th of September and I am now in stage 2 and just about getting used to my new timetable. We just got internet in my new house yesterday and I can now begin blogging again the real reason am blogging so late is that I have a cold and can’t sleep.

Let me tell you a bit about stage 2. Stage 2 requires a lot of group work and last year I didn’t really have a good experience with group work.
I was working with someone last year on a website and when the assignment was given, we also found out we had to assess each others effort on the project. A percentage goes towards our module mark. We had both agreed we’d be generous in that area. Getting to the point I basically did most of the work whilst also babysitting my partner to do some work.

Deadline came and due to lack of contribution we stopped talking to each other and gave in what we could. Whilst marking the peer assessment form I kept to my word and gave my partner good marks despite knowing that constructive criticism was best I kept thinking she is a friend she need good marks. The results came out during exams and by then we where slowly talking again (despite what people do nobody is perfect and I make mistake too, so am not going to write her off as a friend) she got a better mark than me (the person who did most of the work).

I was so confused how I should be feeling should I say something to her (because she had obviously marked me low because we had fallen out as friends) or leave it am sure she knows what she’s done. I ended up trying to forget it and focused on my exams which I passed with a distinction.

Now am in stage two and we are not in the same group. I think we both knew it wouldn’t work but it still leaves me a bit on guard with my new group who are also 4 of my friends. I don’t think it’s a good idea working with friends but then there’s working with absolute strangers who I might not be able to communicate with. At least with friends I know what to expect (I think) but maybe am just worrying and this might actually work out alright.

I definitely learnt a lesson and that is sticking to constructive criticism because that would have helped the friend even if she had marked me low out of spite.
I would love to say all is forgiven and forgotten but even though you want to forget you just can’t but I certainly do forgive after all we are still talking.

Crazy Fox

May 14, 2005

what is all the fuss with firefox people are now painting the logo in the middle of their university.
I seriously don’t see what the big deal is. Am a loyal IE user.

poor IE.

attempts at revising

May 13, 2005

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how on earth do you make revision interesting?

Revision

May 8, 2005
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Okay am on a two weeks course that helps me master maths ready for the exam and also help me on time management when it comes to revision.

Did you know our brains can only pay attention for like 40 mins and then it needs a break.

So the plan suggested is to revise for 40 mins and take a 20 mins break.

I am supposed to have 8 session of revision in a day with each one on a different topic to the one before. when it comes to evening stop revising.

Its been a week into the plan and i have not kept to this plan mainly because of the 8 hour sleep am supposed to get every night in order for me to be “in the zone” for revising.
I sleep at 3 to 4 am in the morning eveyday because i can’t sleep at night so i wake up at 1-3pm in the afternoon and evening is already coming.

when i wake up am tired so i stay in bed and end up doing only 1 session of revision.

I am trying but once i get stuck i stop and watch a film or something thats more than a 20 min break.
i just find it hard to stick to such a plan. I lack in discipline the next week i will definately try harder we are having tai chi on wednesday apparently that suppose to help.

Its important that i pass this exams. I have four exams.My first exam is on the 27th of May on Computer System this is the hardest of all my exams. i have serious problems with this module theres just too many topics under this one module. i fear i won’t cover them all.

My other exams are:
Maths June 7th
Java June 1st
Internet Programming June 3rd

luck

April 26, 2005
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before i started uni i had wanted to get a laptop. i looked in magazines pc world even dell as a last result. uni started so quickly i was not prepared and i had not bought a laptop yet. while i was at uni far from home did not no where the shops where i kept calling home and asking family members to help me find a good laptop. i did not suggest they buy it i merely asked for help in finding the right one. i came across the ferrari 3400 in FHM magazine(yes i know its meant for males but that a whole other story) i was just mentioning how cool it was to my brother not suggesting anything though, the taught did cross my mind. when i went home for christmas guess what was waiting for me yes a ferrari 3400 laptop which at the time cost £1400. how lucky am i?